I keep having this nagging feeling that I simply need to hit the reset button on my life. lately, all I’ve wanted is a short break from life and a clean start.
periodically, I have the urge to pause life and just take a breather, but not once have I so desired a fresh start. this is a new thing for me. but I imagine it won’t be the first time.
over the last year, I have strayed miserably from the person I was becoming while in undergrad. I liked that person. I loved her.
but now, I do not like who I am. I hate that I’ve let other materialistic things become more important than God and my family. I hate that I no longer enjoy school. I hate everything about the last year of my life.
so I’m hitting the reset button.
until I get it right.
so today is the beginning of a very busy weekend. took a moment to pray about it this morning and of course ended up chanting one of my favorite verses to myself.
you may recognize it as the namesake of this blog.
but it gives me peace. which this weekend very much calls for.
hope your weekend is lovely,
I think it’s safe to say that I’m a bit of a daddy’s girl.
but it’s also safe to say that I love my mama. very much.
probably because we have the best kind of mother-daughter relationship: my mom is my best friend.
truly. I tell her everything. she’s the best listener, the best advice-giver, the best encourager, the best proofreader, and just the best. at everything. and she’s with me every step of the way. picking up the pieces and holding on to them for me while I figure out where to put them.
and this is the point where she’ll call me to say that last bit was “a little melodramatic.” so I’ll stop there. but all it’s true. she’s my rock.
so mom, since you’re reading now, it’s been a rough year for me. and I apologize for that. because I took a lot of it out on you. I’m sorry. but 1L year wouldn’t have been possible without you. really, most of my things I’ve accomplished wouldn’t have been possible without you. so thanks. thanks for the never ending support and love. because having that makes all the difference in the world.
and now that you’re done reading this, go give your mom a hug or a call.
I feel like someone has been holding the fast forward button down on my life this past week. it has flown by. the only thing missing was me and everyone around me sounding like chipmunks.
which I’m kind of sad about. that might have added a little humor to my week.
I wish it would slow down. but it’s not looking like it will.
my biggest problem with this wicked fast pace is that I feel so out of control. and for those of you who know me, that’s the worst thing for me. because I’m a control freak.
lately, I’ve let myself forget that God is in control, not me. I used to be better about it, but after a year in law school, I’m back to disregarding His plan.
which needs to change.
I’m working on it.
this is what I try to remember every day: Matthew 6:25-34.
on a happier note, today, the little brother attends his first formal: the 8th Grade Dance. our house has been a flurry of activity, not quite as bad as a wedding, but with me working from home and the parental working around the house and dealing with the little brother, it’s been a little bit nuts.
but today is special for the little brother and I’m thankful that I’m allowed to be a part of it. thankful that God gave me such a fantastic little brother and that he asked me to take his pictures (prom style, of course). thankful to share this with my family. thankful that God is in control today and every day. thankful that He will be with us today and every day.